St Giles, Patron Saint of Breastfeeding, Blesses the Milk
equates his thirst
to knowledge, holds his own lack
as a badge – he knows, he says,
what it’s like to latch a babe
to the beck of the breast, to be strung
to a mother, to put his own mouth
to the world and suck it
dry. he knows, he says, how tired
it makes him, how unbelievably exhausted,
how it must feel to be a mother, he knows, he says,
from lived experience, the toll it takes, how much
he needed, how much need was unmet.
then where is the one who did the work,
where is the breast, where is the mother
in this particular patronage. fuck
off Giles. you do not know the blocked
ducts, you do not know the night
feeds, only as night-fed, you don’t know
the way the body buckles under strain
of supplying. give me a lactating mother
whose let down leaks, whose latch
is unsure, whose nipples crack, whose milk
is tinged with blood, who loves,
whose body has burst
its banks.
Vic Punch